okay.... now i'm trying on the pitas.com thingy. will switch to that once it's ready. but truthfully, it'll take a really long time. i'm totally lost.

i'm feeling really down today. i can't sleep yesterday. was tossing and turning in bed for hours. y can't i be smart or talented or smth. people always say there bound to be smth good in a person. i can't find any in me. fine i dun have the looks. and i dun have the brains (duh). talents? i have none. it've been 16 years and i've discovered no talent so... guess that's set. heart? i dun have such a good heart either. so... wat's good in me? why am i here when i've done no good to the world? watever.