i closed my eyes. tried to calm myself down. a stack of A3 drawing papers was chucked on the table. I rushed to it together with some other people. rummaged frantically for my own work. Others jumping with joy. i found it. a white drawing paper with some light sketches. that's my o level drawing paper. took a deep breath and flipped the drawing over. I searched for my grade. a small grey pencil marking was at the bottom left. i strained my eyes to read it. the grey marking was clear enough on the white paper. it was a B. someone saw it too and gave me a hug. i burst into tears, trembling in her shoulder...
suddenly i woke up. phew... it was a dream. so vivid is the dream. i can still feel that i'm in it. though i can't remember who's that her. one of my classmates probably..
do i sound very paranoid?
i can't help it. can't control what i dream.
and the day before i dreamt that i cut my hair. snapped everything off until it's really short and snappy....

monday i went sch in the morning to help carry my painting back from the exam centre. it was tiring. some idiots didn't turn up. we could only bring home our coursework after the o level result is released. and my mother wants to carry my painting home. she's totally nuts. our house is definately too small to squeeze place for my painting. she's really crazy man.
crazy.
afterthat went over to debbie's to make 'pau'. really screwed. but still edible. made some 'white chocolate'. actually it's some sweetened milk coating. okay.. it's very very sweet. but it's nice la.. can feel it melting in my mouth now..

oh... on mon eden left. migrated to canada. how sad. still 'owe' her two years of b'day present. i send it all together over to canada one day..

tue went to esplanade with deb and emily. it's nth much actually but i love the library there. there's scores for you to borrow. BUT.. you have to pay abt $20.60 per year. that include the 'renting' of DVDs though. worth it?

planned to rest today.. tml out to orchard again. with pei wen those people. be mentally prepared for a day of boredom. make sure i'm back in time to watch amazing race.

i watched restless yesterday. first time watching. can't really catch the story. will find someone to enlighten me. after that watched The Fly II. so gross.. think part one is better. yucks.. that show got to be nc16..

my parents are now starting to pack for that genting trip already. please... we're only leaving next monday. but that remind me. ask them for a new pair of jeans. i can't fit into mine anymore. gain too much weight this year...